Saturday, August 2, 2008
kays... tis is a random post u shudnt read if u arent free... im juz gonna crap again... like wad i did on wednesday, july 9th...
it seems.. if u are observant enough... everytime i... its so obvious on my blog...
here i go:
wad do i haf... that makes me haf frenz...?? at times... i feel as if i have no frenz at all... when i nid a shoulder, i cnt find any... and i had 2 rely on a 'thing' to help wif softenin the impact... it does not help much... but its better than nth! and to tat person... my tears were real at that time.. i wasnt fakin it. i did not yawn fyi. and for the 1st time in my life... aint i glad no one reads my blog... he aint affected and thus simply, im alone in this fkin world... why am i livin on this dam place? i kip thinkin and thinking and i simply juz cnt figure the answer out. hey i dun even haf a talent to start wif and no talent is okie liao summore add a fkin attitude prob! mayb the reason i dun haf a talent its bcuz im made to die young o.0 i dun even haf a intrest for a fact... i wan to change skool... but would my parents allow? havin to buy new clothings and books if need be... cryin in silence as i type this... even my bro n sis, sittin on either sides of me dun even noe... nobody noes... im a nobody... i dun even haf attention frm my parents... they are now oni haf eyes on my bro... whus bday is today... and him... che! happily tokin 2 her. she summore say she verii nice person. cnt deny... but to me well no. he still say: consider the place im sittin at.. hey when he can jolly well move his dam seat... he juz sit down there. not movin! a weaklin i jolly say i am. gone case... i realli wan to do it this time... oh god... juz sent someone from up there to finish me pls? i cnt supress it anymore.. i cnt take it... nth helps... kreacher... i fkin god dam miss u... why cnt u juz get out from ur hell hole? I LUV PRI SKOOL!! the problems tat happen are much lighter, lesser and easier to handle... everything tat happen durin secondary skool is juz an illusion... hey gettin 3rd wat the fk for? i dun get anything... wads the use of studyin if u dun haf an intrest, a talent...? why cnt my hope/luv for him juz die off like he wish?? tats why he says: 'kindly remove me from ur blog' aint it? hopeless... move on! why cnt i juz move? why im stunned?? juz climb up and move ur fkin feet will u ?? dam u. why r u so weak! muz b strong! garang! like ncc.~
my confidence, gone for good... myself... in the lonely hell hole... can i ever come back?
Wugui♥
3:54 PM
Saturday, August 2, 2008
kays... tis is a random post u shudnt read if u arent free... im juz gonna crap again... like wad i did on wednesday, july 9th...
it seems.. if u are observant enough... everytime i... its so obvious on my blog...
here i go:
wad do i haf... that makes me haf frenz...?? at times... i feel as if i have no frenz at all... when i nid a shoulder, i cnt find any... and i had 2 rely on a 'thing' to help wif softenin the impact... it does not help much... but its better than nth! and to tat person... my tears were real at that time.. i wasnt fakin it. i did not yawn fyi. and for the 1st time in my life... aint i glad no one reads my blog... he aint affected and thus simply, im alone in this fkin world... why am i livin on this dam place? i kip thinkin and thinking and i simply juz cnt figure the answer out. hey i dun even haf a talent to start wif and no talent is okie liao summore add a fkin attitude prob! mayb the reason i dun haf a talent its bcuz im made to die young o.0 i dun even haf a intrest for a fact... i wan to change skool... but would my parents allow? havin to buy new clothings and books if need be... cryin in silence as i type this... even my bro n sis, sittin on either sides of me dun even noe... nobody noes... im a nobody... i dun even haf attention frm my parents... they are now oni haf eyes on my bro... whus bday is today... and him... che! happily tokin 2 her. she summore say she verii nice person. cnt deny... but to me well no. he still say: consider the place im sittin at.. hey when he can jolly well move his dam seat... he juz sit down there. not movin! a weaklin i jolly say i am. gone case... i realli wan to do it this time... oh god... juz sent someone from up there to finish me pls? i cnt supress it anymore.. i cnt take it... nth helps... kreacher... i fkin god dam miss u... why cnt u juz get out from ur hell hole? I LUV PRI SKOOL!! the problems tat happen are much lighter, lesser and easier to handle... everything tat happen durin secondary skool is juz an illusion... hey gettin 3rd wat the fk for? i dun get anything... wads the use of studyin if u dun haf an intrest, a talent...? why cnt my hope/luv for him juz die off like he wish?? tats why he says: 'kindly remove me from ur blog' aint it? hopeless... move on! why cnt i juz move? why im stunned?? juz climb up and move ur fkin feet will u ?? dam u. why r u so weak! muz b strong! garang! like ncc.~
my confidence, gone for good... myself... in the lonely hell hole... can i ever come back?
Wugui♥
3:54 PM
